I remember how horrible I felt about myself when I saw these photos of me. I was horrified and I cried, I beat myself up emotionally and I refused to get on the scale to see my actual weight. I do know that I weighed in at over 172 lb. What was even worse was that I was working out almost daily to Wii Fit Plus. Which I now call “Wii Fit for seniors” because it never gets my heart rate up. Plus, I was eating right, lean meats, lots of veg, good sized portions and almost no processed foods. Yet, I still looked like this!
After seeing these photos (oh yes, there are more) I refused to eat anything. Then I would be so hungry, I would binge. Bingeing, of course, made me feel even more horrible and I beat myself up all over again. I was a mess. Eventually I decided there was nothing I could do. See, I have fibroid tumors. Now I’m really telling all cuz I don’t share this publicly. I know I could have surgery, but that’s not in my cards… ain’t gonna happen. So, I figured that the tumors were the reason I could eat right, exercise and still be extremely over weight. I got depressed and gave up.
Now depression had a side effect of “no desire for food,” so I didn’t binge and I didn’t starve. I just put food in when someone put it in front of me and never got seconds.
I lost a few pounds. I decided to “try” the scale. That’s when I weighed in at 172 lb.